The sun is shining. The birds are singing. I’m glad to have turned the clocks back so now it’s not so dark in the morning. I’m trying hard to get the hang of this two kids and a newborn thing. I tell myself over and over “I am patient, I am kind, I am a good mother” hoping that if I tell myself that enough it will be true. Billy says it is. (Mega brownie points earned on his part with that one!)
I’m slightly less tired. I was inspired to try the cloth diapers I made. Well, three weeks ago they all seemed huge but little Audrey is eating and growing like a champ and now quite a few of the diapers I made are already too small. I should have made the tabs bigger. I’m thinking one day I’ll have time to fix them. Ha! I’m such an optimist, right?
Audrey is so sweet. I just love her to pieces. She’s getting some little fat rolls and it’s the sweetest thing. When she falls asleep after nursing, I just hold her and stare in awe. Total adoration for this perfect little being we made. I feel really blessed/lucky/whatever you want to call it to have these sweet girls – all three of ‘em.
I really miss Emma when she’s at school. Today report cards are coming home and I’m dreading it. I already know she’s not doing so well and that she is needing extra help. I take it too personally I know but I feel like a failure for not having her more ready for kindergarten. I thought my friend Dani was crazy when she said they really need to be reading *before* starting kindergarten. She wasn’t. I should have put her in five day a week preschool. I should have tried to get her in through the school system’s free preschool but I didn’t. Lots of regrets. I’m hoping she’s going to catch on and everything will magically be just fine.
It’s stressful and I really hate school. I thought I’d go to all the PTA meetings but after that first one I was so over it. Now I know why my friend who is on the board for the PTA said that hardly anyone attends. They suck to be quite blunt.
Ugh. Cate is so stinkin’ smart. She just found the stash of Halloween candy. Funny how she knew. Man, this kid is like my clone or something. I watch her and it’s like looking in the mirror. Bless her little heart. It’s going to be a hard road.
Audrey’s crying. Rambling session over.
My kids aren’t reading yet either. We just had parent teacher conferences and their teacher was pleased and said they were on track and that she wasn’t worried about anything. I was worried because Caleb and Meghan’s handwriting seemed behind. Try not to worry, my kids are no where near reading! Emma seems bright, and happy to me! You are doing a great job!
So how are the other two holding up with the new addition? Are we fighting for mom’s attention yet?
I love it when I look at one of my boys and see a trait of mine….its cracks me up…mini-me! LOL
I’m visiting from Joker’s blog and he was right about you, you have a sweet blog and I love the kiddie talk, it’s refreshing!