Oh, What Was I Thinking?

Not that I regret having Audrey but good Lord! I look like hell. I feel even worse. I’m so tired and drained. Trying to get Emma up and ready for school was seriously challenging this morning in between nursing the baby and Cate wanting to snuggle. Both Cate and I are sick with colds. Great, huh? At least it’s not the swine flu (I don’t think). Just have a bad sinus headache and a really runny nose and a consequently sore throat from the drainage. Blech.

I got up super early with the screaming, hungry baby. Thought I had her satisfied so I started to make some banana/blueberry muffins with the six rotting bananas that were on our counter. Usually this is an EASY recipe but Audrey kept screaming so it took me about 10 times as long. I made 27 muffins. Doubled the recipe and then still had enough to fill three ramekin cups. They are delicious. Emma and Cate loved them and it was an easy breakfast. So that was worth doing.

I played lullabies on my laptop for Audrey and put her in the swing. That didn’t work. Moved her to the bouncy seat. Nope. Put her in her carseat. Oh, hell no! Took her to Billy and within five minutes he’s calling for me from the bedroom. Get muffins in the oven and run down there. He tells me he thinks she’s hungry. Ugh. I think I bit his head off.

Anywho, it’s all behind me now and hopefully I can get some rest today. We’re not going anywhere. A chick from the MOMS Club that I used to be fairly good friends (we grew apart due to her busy schedule mostly but also because we really have nothing in common) is coming by to bring me chicken and dumplings for dinner. Yummy. I’m so excited that I don’t have to cook dinner tonight. I think I’ve cooked everyday since Audrey was born.

So much for Billy’s promises of letting me rest during the week he took off. He drove me insane. This morning was hard but I’m looking forward to a day without hearing him bitch about the mess or about all the things he has to do. During his week off he got quite a few projects done, demonstrated a huge lack of patience with Cate and a total annoyance for the way we do things. I’m glad he’s back at work. I’d rather do it myself I think.

Yesterday he did take the girls on a hike down by his parents’ – they have a lot of land down there so the girls hiked all over the woods and even went down to the creek. They must have been thoroughly worn out because the both slept great last night.

I think I’m going to go take a shower and then try to nap while Cate watches this Strawberry Shortcake crap. *yawn*

I forgot to say how totally in love I am with Audrey. She’s amazing even if she does deprive me of three hours of sleep in a row. It’s worth it. Sweet baby smell. Mmmm. The older girls don’t seem too jealous. I try really hard to give them both individual time but I’m exhausted and can see a change in Emma that makes me a bit sad. I’m hoping she’ll adjust soon. She seems to love holding the baby but has done a few things that are totally out of character.